good, better, best

I get in these ruts.
I don't like myself.
I don't feel pretty,
and I can never figure out how to act.
I end up taking it out on others, which I'm trying very hard not to do.

When I feel like this, little things throw me off.
I know that happens because it's hard for me to get to a happy place to begin with.
With that's changed, it's not the actual change that hurts, it's that I don't know when I'll feel good again.

It works out, I know.
I just don't like it.

When I feel like this, I'm not searching for compliments, or lines to make me feel better.
I know what I am, I just need to remind myself.

Thanks to some hilarious friends who endured an awkward conversation just to talk today.  I love you.