that's something i really cannot even fathom. now, or ever, it seems like.
that's a huge commitment!
being somewhere, and really being there (to maintain sanity) forever.
i'm not good at being somewhere. maybe i'm better than i think?
but i just really want to be everywhere right now.
i got these moccs in west yellowstone, where i would kill to be right now. but they take me on errands in the beautiful fall weather (even though i'd like a bit of utah fall too), and they take me to the playground with my niece.
in high school, whenever i needed to chill out and calm down, i would go swing.
sometimes with friends, sometimes by myself.
it still helps. there's something weirdly reflective about swinging at a park.
and that day i thought about being.
and i'm really glad i can be here right now.